God May Not Have Woken Up

losjr
Hey son…
I woke up this morning to you sticking your finger in my right nostril.
I didn’t open my eyes because I was intrigued as to your intentions.
You were doing it very lightly as if not to wake me.
You moved to my eye lids.
Rubbing them lightly.
You then traced your finger down to my lips.
You plucked them like someone would a bass guitar.
I heard a giggle.
Then your tiny finger traced its way to my ears.
My ears are really ticklish so it took all I had to not bust out laughing.
But I was intrigued.
And then yes…you traced your way around the maze in my earlobe like the race car driver you dream of being…
All the while making those race car sounds…
“vrmmmmmm, eeeerrrrrrrkkkkkkkkk, pckwshhhhhhhh”
Your hand then slowly traced its way to my chest.
It stopped there, flat against it.
I could literally FEEL you staring at me and FEELING my heart beat.
Your wispy hair then landed in my chest and I felt your breathing slow down.
It wasn’t long before you were back asleep after searching every crease in your fathers face for a good 10 minutes.

I shed but a single tear of joy that you just wanted to see my face and know it so deeply.
I shed another that I had not done that with my Father in a long time.
Just staring at His face with no more intention than just wanting to know His face better.

Thanks for the lesson kid.
And thanks for not sticking your finger in my mouth.
God may not have woken up, but I would have.
Dad

loswhit

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  • beautiful.

  • Very nice.

  • okay fine. this got to my goo-filled center.

  • Whoa…and wow.

  • my heart is sighing with the beauty of this picture of God….

  • wow Los. You are so good with helping us visualize through text. So cool.

  • mo

    ahh cant wait for our son to be born! thanks for the preview 🙂

  • Dude. No, I’m not crying…I think I just got something in my eye.

  • Sigh I miss those days. I think if that were my teenage sons now I would jump thinking something was wrong. ha. But I sure miss that young age. Miss the cuddles in the bed before getting up, I hated it when they had colds but loved all the snuggles I got when they were not feeling well.

    Ok off to tell hubby we need more babies… (kidding, ha)

  • IC

    How quickly I forget that relationship, too. Thanks for the reminder 🙂

  • Kyle

    I love that you find and claim God everywhere you find Him, and that you have the senses to see him in the moments most of us would just find as an average moment where a young boy is curious and playful.

    That is why I read your blog, to be challenged in ways I would have never been had I not stopped by to read.

  • Shogun R

    that was cute 🙂 and deep! Thanks for the reminder 🙂

  • Beautiful.

  • A beautiful thing, beautifully written.

  • ashleigh

    sweetness and such truth. thanks.

  • I LOVE this post!! You are so right…. I often forget how He longs for us to crawl up next to Him, seek His face, and just rest in His presence. Thanks for the reminder!

  • I was raised by my grandparents, my grandmother died when I was 11 years old. I am now 30 and my grandfather is 69. He has a new problem everytime her goes to the Dr, I can honestly say not a day goes by that I think of him dying.
    Every chance I get I look at him, stare at him, because I know (crying as I type this) just like it is with my grandmother, I won’t be able to remember what he looks like by memory.

  • Aw, this is so sweet. *Sigh*

  • How gorgeous? Thanks, Los!

  • janet

    fabulous!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • janet

    We adopted 2 children years ago. Our youngest will be 23 in Oct. We did it before people were adopting that could have their own children, infact we were afraid we might be turned down because we could have our own. We had one biological child already but felt Gods call for us to bring a child who needed a home into our lives. We adopted older boys so as not to compete with infertile couples. Ours were 6 yrs old, one from Thailand , one from Russia. So glad the church is stepping up in this dept. These children are truly a blessing. Oh and thanks for your great rattling of the Church status quo. I am almost 60 and agree with you and love your thought provoking questions. Thanks!

  • jen

    wow.

  • monica

    it’s beautiful. and oh, you just made me cry.

  • beautiful

  • Might have to use this one as a worship set up if I may borrow it. Awesome picture and a reminder. Gotta run! I have some face tracing to do.

  • This is the most beautiful thing I’ve read in a while.

    But– “Just staring at His face with no more intention than just wanting to know His face better.”– I don’t know if I even know how to do this anymore. How do you do it, Los?

  • Hazel

    This blog rally touched my heart.

  • I remember growing up and doing that to my dad and my mom. I liked looking at their hands as well. Like knowing every line would make me know more about who they are.

    Great post Los!

  • ren

    WOW! What a great post. Thanks Los.

  • Megan

    Wow. Thank you for this!

  • david u

    my own kids are often reminders of my relationship with my heavenly father, both good and bad. Thanks for painting such a beautiful, honest picture. Moved.

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  • JV

    Unbelievable & thought-provoking, wow!

  • Whit

    Wow. I love the way you love your kids and celebrate the oh so little things. You remind us all to slow down and take these moments in!

  • Lizzy

    i want to know my Father in this way. thank you so much for taking the time to write this and share it with all of us. i posted a link to this on my blog & fb. God bless!

  • I loved how beautifully you’ve written it. It was as if you captured it all on camera, without the vision but the literacy of it.

  • just searched through your blogs for this one because I read it a while back and wanted to hear it again. Thanks for being so honest, Los, and loving your kids so deeply.

  • elizabeth

    i love him SO much! had such a great time with him in KY!

  • Silvia

    Wow… So beautiful…

  • Lisa Johnson

    Wow. Just wow. I loved this Los!

  • Ray LeTellier

    At my Mom’s Funeral, my 8 year old Grandson put his head on my shoulder–that’s where I found my comfort at that moment–from a Child—God’s awesome gift to us !!

    Ahh–they grow up too fast !

  • I see God my Father, fresh and new! Thx u!

  • BiancaBroos

    beautiful. Every parent’s heart desire is to know their child and be known. — speaks volumes about our father. My kids teach me about Jesus — and I am wonderstruck.

  • I was ok until you said, “I shed another that I had not done that with my Father in a long time.”

    Then you had me…

  • thanks, dude. good stuff!

  • Welly-eyed … Thank you for this beautiful picture of our Father

  • Kathy Prescott

    Beautiful…you brought tears to my eyes as I was reading this.

  • That was incredible. Thanks for sharing!