Your Thorn May Be In You, But Your Thorn Doesn’t Own You


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It’s so hard to explain.
Because it’s never the same.
Lately I explain it as this…
You know when you are freezing cold, and you can’t help but shiver.
It’s like that.  Except you look at your arms and you aren’t shivering.
It’s like your insides are shivering.

Living with anxiety is a bitch.  Quite literally.
I mean, most of my income comes from standing and singing/speaking to lot’s of people.
It is the thorn in my flesh that rears her ugly head at the most inopportune times.
The second point of my message this past Sunday…
Driving to Atlanta passing Chattanooga on my left…
Laying in bed in the middle of the night…
In the middle of an UNO game with the kids.

You see anxiety knows no location, no situation, no race, no sex, no age.
You can’t always pray it away, medicate it away, or drink it away.
What you can do is to tell it that no matter when it decides to show it’s ugly face, it won’t have you.
It won’t take you away from enjoying the calling God has placed in your life.
It won’t take you away from enjoying the amazing family God has placed in your life.
It won’t take you away from kicking your 7 year olds butt in UNO for the 45th time in a row.
It won’t have me.

We are broken.
We won’t ever be fixed until this life is done.
So we should choose what to give power to.
And as I type this with my fingers shaking over my keyboard…
I choose to give power to you and keep typing.
Because as easy as it would be to stop…
Easy is never better.

Take courage today ragamuffins.
Whatever your thorn…
Be Brave.


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  • Julianna

    Thanks for this. The same is true for depression. For many years, I let it be in charge and completely strip me of my worth in Christ. No more!

  • Green619

    Thank you Carlos for this…I needed to read this today. I am struggling with so many things in my life today…needed encouragement, and to be up lifted that I can beat this…

  • Thanks for continually letting us see ALL of you. Your words are powerful. Your words help me with my own struggle with depression. Thanks for following His call on you. Be blessed.

  • poiema3

    You have no idea how much I appreciate reading this right now. My own (dormant for over ten years) anxiety has recently reared its ugly head and landed me in the ER twice in two weeks, both times resulting in hospital stays. I am now HAPPILY taking Ativan, but I know it’s not magic and I know I have to keep fighting. Anxiety is not going to have me. Not today.

  • gizem

    Thanks for the great article. i really appreciate it. it will be a great guide for my En ucuz asus zenfone thesis

  • Sandy Parks

    Thanks and may God bless you. Currently experiencing the worst bipolar mixed state episode of my life. The struggle, we all know, is minute-by minute. I will come back to your blog again and again, so thanks for many minutes of relief!

  • Hayley Brotherton

    I’m late to the party, but just wanted to say thank you. Thanks for reposting the article a few days ago about Christians and anxiety, because it led me down a rabbit hole to finding these blog posts. They have given me a lot of hope, and the courage to start letting people know about my daily life with a panic disorder. I’m still on the road to finding the right medicine and therapy, but thank you for helping one more person feel less alone.