BLOG

..to disturb and disrupt to see Christ’s face fresh again...

How to outrun Lust & Jealousy

guylooking2 copy

I keep waiting to wake up one day and have lust and jealousy completely removed from my life.
When I am laying there…still…eyes only half open…I actually believe I’ve won.
Then I sit up, walk to the sink, splash some water on my face and look in the mirror.
Wow. Rough. Man. Did someone beat the crap out of me while I was sleeping?
As the morning progresses it is filled with little skinny arms hugging my waist, torso, and neck…according to height.
There is not an ounce of lust or jealousy inside this Panamanian soul.
Walk to the car, drive to the hipster cafe filled with much skinnier and more beautiful people than I.
The second I open the door jealousy begins to seep in.
These people are freaking beautiful.
WHAT?! STOP IT!!!
Bam. LUST.
STOP IT
I open my laptop and see my twitter feed blowing up with friends of mine planning this epic hangout together and I’m not included in the conversation…
JEALOUSY RAGES.
I get an instagram like from a lady with a bit too much cleavage…
LUST rages.
OMG.

Humanity.
We can’t run from it.
We can’t hide from it.
We must live in it.

So I do what I know I must.
I open up God’s word and start reading and seeing the truth of who Jesus is in my life.
The truth of His overwhelming strength in my life.
The truth of this…
NOTHING is greater and more fulfilling than His love for me.
The more I read the more I remember.
The more I remember the less I keep checking out the hot chick in the really awful high waisted hipster jeans that are so hideous.
The more I read the more I remember to pick up the phone and call those I need to call to tell them to pray for my wicked and sinful soul today cause I’m a hot mess.
The more I read the more I am honestly thrilled for my friends who are having an epic time together without me.

The word of God is not magic.
But.
It ACTUALLY and ABSOLUTELY gives you strength far greater than your own.


So quit trying so hard to fight and to live this Christian life.
Actually.
Give up.
And let God’s word fill you with the truth of His strength in you and through you.

It’s better that way.
Los

  • Good stuff, Los. Good stuff. Thanks for putting your soul out here for us to see. It makes a difference.

  • Thanks for being real. Thanks for the unspoken reminder of God’s ever present help. Thanks for not leaving me to stand out on not-yet-sanctified limb alone. I hope you know the grace of God continue to empower you through the day!

  • It’s always great to see we’re not alone in our journey. In my mind, I know others struggle with the same things I do, but it’s great to see someone else share it. Thanks Los!

  • Sony Samuel Somar

    Thank you, Los. Thank you very much.

  • Thanks for being real with us. Good advise. We all struggle. I struggled for decades with pornography. I was in the mode for a lustful thought to be entertained, fantasized about very quickly. My brain was simply wired for it. God has now brought great victory through relationship with him and my brothers. After conquering buying the magazines or searching the internet for images, my most common place of real struggle remained the gym. As I begged God to allow me to experience him through the temptation, he began to bring focus on his holiness, his strength rather than my weakness. Songs, scriptures and truths were sent to my mind by his Spirit. These were built upon with realization of the many ways I was connected to him during the workout, as my creator and support. With this help the tempting thought would not be entertained. This was amazing! A while later, I was communing with God in the Alps of Germany. I reflected on the view, undoubtably one of the most beautiful in the world. I sensed him saying, “This is beautiful because I am beautiful. It is but a dim reflection of my beauty.” I realized the most beautiful woman in the world is just a dim reflection of his beauty as well. Most often now when attracted to a woman, I thank God for the reminder of his beauty. The beauty is appreciated without the sexual connotation. He indeed is changing the way I think.

  • Amanda S

    SO happy I came across your blog. Will be an avid follow of your posts!
    http://www.2bdetermined.net

  • Joe

    We fall in love what we focus on bro. I never heard this anywhere but here: http://www.gwenshamblin.com/rise-above/

  • Funmilayo Obijiofor

    I’m glad I got linked to this blog.. It’s my motivation for my blog http://www.funmiobi.blogspot.com . Thank you Los

  • T. Rousey

    Great Post!! Thank you!!