Today we ventured to Pasadena to go celebrate with Heather’s uncle Rick and family and friends. Rick got married yesterday to his partner David. I was not able to go to the wedding because I obviously had church. But I wanted to make it evident to Rick that I cared for him and David. At the party/brunch today I was able to write to the 2 of them a small note in a sort of congrats journal. While writing I was able to take a quick second and think solely about Rick and who he is to me. I can see Christ in Rick. I truly can. In almost every aspect of him. From his brashness to his sincerity. He does things all or nothing. I found it a struggle to come to grips with my feelings. Only now I am settling with them. I am happy for Rick. He seems healed. He seems complete. Of’course he is. Just as when you find that mate you have searched for. There is an aspect of humanness that I cannot help but be satisfied with and for him. Rick knows what I believe. He knows my "politicalness". He knows my "evangelicalness". But more than anything, today Rick and David know I love them and will continue to be a part of their lives until God takes one of them home. Some have told me I am wrong in my feelings.
But I’m tired of not celebrating my love for someone while trying to prove a point.
Call it what it is.
Los.