I believe that there is a moment, at least once, where a person who carries the banner of Christ actually intends to carry that banner forever.
Sometimes there is more than a moment.
Sometimes there is a day, a week, a month, a year, a lifetime.
I know for me I pick that banner up when it’s essential.
When I know that the banner of Christ will get me through a season of life I carry that banner loudly.
Then when the banner gets heavy, I lay that flag down.
It’s like I believe what Christ is telling and promising me while at the exact same time I don’t believe Him.
Don’t think that’s possible?
Take a look at this dad right after Jesus drove some demons out of his son…
24 Immediately the boy’s father exclaimed, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!”
Mark 9:24

I mean Jesus is standing RIGHT IN FRONT of him ready to drive out this demon.
Right in front of him.

Do you see it?
At the exact same moment…
It is possible for someone, this someone standing in front of the physical presence of Jesus, to believe AND not believe at the exact same time.

Suddenly I don’t feel so whack.
Suddenly I don’t feel so crazy.
Suddenly seeing a follower of Christ hold up the banner of Christ in one moment and then lay it down in the next moment does not confuse me.
If it is possible to believe and not believe at the exact same time, then it is possible to understand this…
That if you are in any way trying to carry the banner of Christ alone, you will put it down the second you doubt.
But if you allow Christ Himself to carry His banner through you, then you got this.
You do.
Even in your cray cray moments.

So whether you have been carrying Christ’s banner proudly for a long stretch of a moment or if you laid it down years ago and are more filled with hate than you have ever been…
Know that you can rest now.
You aren’t crazy.
You can believe while being filled with unbelief and HE will believe for you.
Trust me.
It’s true.
Or don’t trust me…
Just read His Word…

It’s better that way…

Week 3 Day 1 of Beth Moore’s Breaking Free Study provided my brain with this mojo…